Don’t Like Your Weight? Choose Acting as a Career! A Big Maybe but Probably Not!

Most of us struggle with our weight unless you’re one of the fortunate ones who like to exercise like crazy and watch their weight like hawks.  This made me think of the actors and actresses who lost or gained quite a bit of weight for a role.  There are pros and cons to this.  It’s usually once in a lifetime role.  It could get you an Oscar (they love a good drama and even better if it is based on a real person).  It could also cause you health issues during and after.  It leaves you hungry most of all during the filming process.  While I don’t recommend quick weight loss for anyone because then the chance is greater to gain it all back, even more for those who yo-yo with their weight, actors and actresses will and can do their own thing.  It is part of their job so to speak.  I’m sure they play mind games with themselves and convince themselves they aren’t hungry.  I know I’ve done that before.  Here are some impressive ones who lost or gained weight for a role (maybe a little too much for some) and not an all exhaustive list by any means.

Just one more cheeseburger, please!


*** Robert De Niro gained around 60 pounds for Raging Bull where he plays boxer, Jake LaMotta.  He also had to be in tip shape during LaMotta’s prime so he deserves top prize.

** Charlize Theron gained around 30 pounds for Monster where she plays a serial killer, Aileen Wuornos.

** Eric Bana gained around 28 pounds for Chopper where he plays a prisoner, Mark Read.

** Christian Bale gained around 40 pounds for American Hustle where he plays a con artist.

** Renee Zellweger gained between 20 to 30 pounds for Bridget Jones Diary where she plays a reporter.

** Jared Leto gained between 60 to 65 pounds for Chapter 27 where he plays John Lennon’s killer, Mark Chapman.

** Benicio del Toro gained around 45 pounds for Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas where he plays Dr. Gonzo.

** Gwyneth Paltrow gained around 20 pounds for Country Strong where she plays an alcoholic singer.

** George Clooney gained around 30 pounds for Syriana where he plays a terrorist.

** Russell Crowe gained around 63 pounds for Body of Lies where he plays a CIA agent .

While we never saw it on the big screen, Ryan Gosling got really big for Lovely Bones.  So, sometimes gaining weight doesn’t get you the role you really wanted as it went to Mark Wahlberg.  What can we learn from all this weight gain of actors and actresses?  If you want to gain weight quickly, don’t work out and eat tons of sugar, dairy, and fried food.  I’m talking ice cream, doughnuts, cupcakes, potato chips, cheese, candy, burgers, fries, other saturated fats, and beer.  Obviously, I’m not recommending this by any means.

No more addicting and good tasting food!


*** Christian Bale lost around 63 pounds for The Machinist where he is an insomniac.  He has had to gain and lose weight for many of his roles so he deserves top prize.

** Natalie Portman lost around 20 pounds for the movie Black Swan where she plays a ballet dancer.

** Matthew McConaughey lost around 50 pounds for the movie Dallas Buyers Club where he plays a man with AIDS.

** 50 Cent lost around 50 pounds for Things Fall Apart where he plays a football player who has cancer.

**  Anne Hathaway lost around 25 pounds for Les Misérables where she plays a prostitute dying of tuberculosis.

** Jake Gyllenhaal lost around 30 pounds for Nightcrawler where he plays a freelance journalist.

** Adam Driver lost around 30 pounds for Silence where he plays a Jesuit priest.

** Mila Kunis lost around 20 pounds for Black Swan where she plays a ballet dancer.

** Tom Hanks lost around 26 pounds for Philadelphia where he plays man dying of AIDS.

** Chris Hemsworth lost around 33 pounds for In the Heart of the Sea where he plays a seafarer.

As you probably know, extreme weight loss in a short amount of time is never a good thing.  It doesn’t look all that good either on a person.  You might be wondering why I’m writing about this.  It’s a reminder not to be so gluttonous when it comes to food.  It’s a hard thing to overcome.  Most people battle it until they die.  So again, what can we learn from all this weight loss of actors and actresses?  If you want to lose weight quickly, work out (not too heavy with the weights) and don’t eat tons of sugar, dairy, and fried food.  I’m talking almonds, carrots, apples, tuna, dried oatmeal paste, liquid diets, pills, cleanses, and the ever hard don’t eat method (if you are an actor or actress above needing to lose weight for a role).  Most people aren’t willing to go to these extremes, but if we are being honest with ourselves, we still need to make some sacrifices and not eat so damn much.  I know it’s easy to throw around words and advice and wisdom.  It’s much harder to do it, but does it really need to be THAT hard.  I don’t think so, but check back in six months.  Then, I’ll really know, but hopefully not AGAIN.





Movie Recommendation: Macbeth (2015)

Quote from Macbeth by Lady Macbeth: “This is the very painting of your fear.”


Producers: Jenny Borgars, Iain Canning, Olivier Courson, Laura Hastings-Smith, Danny Perkins, Rosa Romero, Tessa Ross, Emile Sherman, Andrew Sherman, Andrew Warren, Bob Weinstein, and Harvey Weinstein

Director: Justin Kurzel

Writers: Todd Louiso, Jacob Koskoff, Michael Lesslie (screenplay) and William Shakespeare (play)
Major Cast: Michael Fassbender, Marion Cotillard, Paddy Considine, Selyan Baxter, Scot Greenan, Sean Harris, and Elizabeth Debicki
Rating: R for violence and brief sexuality
Running Time: 1 hour and 53 minutes
Macbeth is one of the numerous plays adapted into movies and written by William Shakepeare.  Unlike his comedies and histories, this is one of his popular tragedies.  It centers around Macbeth, played Michael Fassbender, and his wife, played by Marion Cotillard, who find themselves spiraling down into mental anguish because of their own doing.  This adaptation focuses on the connection between being a soldier during a time when swords were used in battle and the personal trauma that occurs once he returns home.  In addition to this, Macbeth finds a new purpose when he is told by three women he will be given the title of Thane of Cawdor.  He is persuaded to further his position at Lady Macbeth insistence, which leads him down a dangerous path.  As his delusions make him do things he normally would not have done, it leads into further internal conflict and unrest.  He may have washed the blood from his hands, but he continues to find enemies everywhere and no one is safe.  There are battles between people, with words and swords.  There are consequences for most everyone.   While this is a tried and true story, you watch this for the performances, but would have liked to seen a little more screen time in some of the pivotal scenes.

Macbeth gets Four Fingers at 90%




First Coloring of 2019



2018 Writing Book Exercise in 2019

(Tell a story that begins with a ransom note)

When Sally read the note, she couldn’t believe what she was reading.  Here was someone asking for money she didn’t have.  How was she supposed to get five million dollars when she wasn’t allowed to work?  She hadn’t worked a single day in her life.  The only job she had was being the proper wife and loving mother.  After her children were sent off to the best schools, she spent her free time usually chatting with her friends over hot cups of coffee with no creamer or sugar.  As her children went onto the best universities money could buy, she found herself in a place she relished although was lonely at times.

She was never given any access to her husband’s bank accounts, and while it might bother some, it never did for her.  Her first son, Leonard, was the next in line to make sure her needs were taken care of when her husband died.  Her husband, also Leonard, thought of most people as dolts, but would never tell this to their faces.  He needed them to keep earning money as they were his business partners.  On the other hand, Leonard Jr. wasn’t so quick to judge others as stupid if they disagreed with his decisions.  He was too young, in her opinion, to take over her husband’s wealth and she worried the board of directors would try to dethrone him from his rightful seat.  Yet, he was old enough to have a wife and child.

She did what any dutiful wife would do in a panic.  She called 911 even though the note specifically told her not to call 911.  It also told her they’d know if she had called the cops.  It didn’t even register that it was more than one person involved, any composure she might have had left her as she punched the three numbers on her phone.  She had to dial the number five times because she kept pushing too many ones.  When she finally got someone on the line, she spoke too quickly for the operator.  He had to raise his voice a little bit, forcing her to calm down.  The moment he heard the word “kidnap,” the words spilled out of his mouth a little quicker.  Time was of the essence and urgency could be heard as he recorded their conversation letter by letter with his fingers.

There wasn’t anything Sally could do but wait.  She had waited much of her life.  She waited for her husband to come back from his business trip, waited for her son to come back from prep school during Christmas, and waited for her daughter to come out of her belly as she was a week past her due date.  Much of her life belonged to her family and now she could not get in touch with her children and her husband was somewhere unknown.  Her mind went to a dark place.  She thought of all the things that might be happening to her husband.  Maybe, the kidnappers had snatched up her son and daughter too.  Her son never turned off his phone.  Her daughter always picked up by the second ring. 

There was too much silence.  Her anxiety and fear boiled over.  She went to the bathroom and took a few pills from her prescription.  She might have broken her arm a year ago, but the phantom pain still hung around.  She left the bathroom feeling a little better and waited three minutes before the police arrived.  She graciously let them in and showed them the ransom note.  It was typed instead of handwritten.  There was no postage on the envelope and it was one that already had adhesive attached to it.  The average person might think of the missed opportunity for DNA but not Sally.

She eyed the officers with hesitation and mild suspicion.  They gathered as much information as they could from her, but there wasn’t much for her to give.  She had not seen her husband in five days.  He was on an important business trip.  She convinced herself her children were with her husband and were safe.  Having them all together was better than them separated.

When her phone rang, she flipped it around.  It was an unrecognizable number.  She threw it to the officer closer to her.  He caught it and brought it back to her, gesturing for her to answer it.  She didn’t want to.  He pressed the button and shoved it into her hand.  Her voice was timid when she spoke.


“Are you the wife of Leonard Sr?” a man asked in a disguised voice.

“Yes, I am.  What do you want?”

 She heard him breathing and that’s it.   She asked him again what he wanted.  

“What the fuck do you think I want, lady?  You have one hour to get my money.  No funny business, got it.  One whiff of a cop at your place and your husband’s dead.”

“I need more time.”

“That’s all you’re getting.”

“Wait,” Sally said but the man had disconnected.

She stared at the phone, then at the officers.  The taller one was on the phone to his commander and the other was speaking to her, but she didn’t hear him.  Where was her children?  Where was her husband?  Her knees felt like jello and her legs weakened.  The space in front of her darkened.  The last thought as she lost consciousness was what did have I done to deserve this.




Some TV Statistics

The highest paid TV actresses or actors in 2018 (Forbes)


The longest running U.S. TV series (Wikipedia)


The longest running scripted U.S. TV series (Wikipedia)





How Much are You Worth in Hollywood by the 2018 Statistics?

Many of us dream and think what it would be like to earn and have a net profit in the millions.  We think it will bring us all kinds of happiness and indeed, it does in some respects, but in others not.  There are pitfalls to most everything.  You lose your privacy when you become an actress and actor.  You are subject to magazine gossip.  Lovers want to know everything about you: what you eat, drink, and crap.  You better have a thick skin.  The haters can rip your soul from your body and step on it without missing a beat.  The thing is this kind of job, while a few earn into the millions, the majority do not.  It’s hard to have longevity in Hollywood and yes, more so for women.  Most every actress has some kind of Botox injected into them and some actors do it as well.  Is talent (some less than others) measure up to what they have in their bank accounts?  I’m not sure, but  even if you have a family member working in Hollywood doesn’t mean you have it made.  Did Jennifer Aniston not teach us anything?  Here are some statistics about wealth and longevity in Hollywood and then adding some general statistics so the lower classes don’t feel left out.

The world’s highest paid actresses in 2018 (Forbes)


The world’s highest paid actors in 2018 (Forbes)


The best investment return of actors and actresses in 2018 (Forbes)

This means for every one dollar paid to the actress or actor, the average return of her or his movies earned was great to good.


The worst investment return of actors and actresses in 2018 (Forbes)

This means for every one dollar paid to the actress or actor, the average return of her or his movies earned was okay to bad.


The rest of us sit way below any of these people unless you come from a great source of wealth.  You are probably in the same boat as me.

According to the Business Insider from 2017, the wealthiest 30 people in the world control 1.23 trillion dollars.

About 13.6 U.S. adults have a net worth above one million so that accounts for 41% of the world’s millionaires.  However, Switzerland has the most millionaires per capita so that means 1 out of 8.6 people can call themselves a millionaire.

The U.S. may have the largest amount of millionaires, but the median wealth per adult if $44,977 and only goes down for certain pockets of minorities.  The distribution isn’t equal by any means.

This might give perspective for all of us regarding wealth in the U.S. and the world.  There’s definitely enough to go around, but unfortunately the very top doesn’t seem to want to share all that much.




First Poem of 2019: Coming Back


If you keep coming back to me, again and again,

no one needs to say how repetitive this is for both of us.

I know you have an agenda to maintain, but I have mine.

It isn’t perfect, but it works for me.

I’m not a person that likes to be shoved along the way.

If it doesn’t feel good for me,

I suspect it doesn’t for you either.

But, here we are in this kind of stalemate,

wondering what the other person is thinking and feeling.

Sometimes kindness gets mistaken for weakness,

and this is something no one wants,

but can be used as a life lesson to remain steady.

You saw it as an opportunity to depart your knowledge and wisdom.

Your drive, your energy, and your persuasion goes beyond a mile.

I get it.

It works for you, but even though it didn’t go as planned, it did mean something.

It further nudged me in the direction I have to take.

While I don’t bend so easily, and take my time to get to that place,

the point I want to land is ultimately up to me,

and me alone.


Quotes about Human Growth

These are self explanatory, but sometimes we all need reminders about what human life is all about or should be about or, at least, a part of what it is about.








Quote About Being Delusional

I saw this on my calendar and found the humor in this.  Try to be honest with your inner self with your outer persona.  Too bad Pablo died thinking he was a saint, but whatever gets you through the day.  Carry on and hopefully not like Pablo did.



Second Week of 2019

neverstoplearningThis is sort of my first journal type entry I’ve been wanting to do more of so here it is.  I find myself doing a lot of inner dialogue concerning my life.   It’s easy to get into a rhythm of head space and personal demands.  It’s been a weird time of wanting more, but being lucky what I have.

I find myself getting into the rhythm of exercising to lose weight (first and foremost) and to get out my frustrations that build up along the way (second and also important).  I’m finally getting into the mindset of really wanting to work out which is a good thing most each day, but keeping it going to be the hardest part.  I don’t jog fast enough to call it running yet, but I’m getting there.  I did the HIIT method last night, which is rewarding and hard as hell at the same time. 

As I plug along and the weeks are going by pretty quickly already, I’m trying to live in a more fulfilling and balanced way.  I’m not so much tripping over my feet and relying on myself mentally, meaning to release things that don’t go as planned as quickly as possible and move on with my life. 

I’m seeking to gain confidence in neglected areas and strengthen the weak ones as I get deeper into 2019.  I’m wanting to be more comfortable in my skin as whole including being okay with my decision-making processes.  I’m basically learning to have a voice that matches the way I was supposed to be from the start.  I’m finding myself able to get back into actually living my life, which is always a good thing.  I will end it as it began. 

Good luck everyone on wherever you are on your learning path.





2019 is the Year of Dreams and Consistency


For most of my life I’ve had dreams and very vivid ones.  I remember them when I wake up and if I don’t jot them down during the day, they stick with me and pester me when I’m getting ready for bed.  This means I usually have to write them down more than not.   Sometimes I don’t, and they eventually go away and don’t come back.

For a good six months last year, I didn’t have any dreams.  It was a blessing and a curse at the same time.  It meant I didn’t need to write my dreams down, but it also meant I wasn’t sleeping as deeply as I should. This corresponded to the time I moved from CA to NV and when my sleeping patterns really became out of whack.  I was tired a lot of the time.  A lot of changes occurred with the move and feelings that were good and bad.  Things have toned down and starting to exercise again is helping.

For most people out there who aren’t part of the top 1 to 10%, they struggle with finances and what that all entails.  It’s easy to come up with mantras and slogans and positive sayings to help push you across the line of negativity.  I’ve lived by the phrase that my life was never easy to begin with and never will be.  Maybe, it is time to change this type of thinking.  Sure, I’m going to struggle with the majority of people, but my life isn’t completely a pile of human waste either.  I have so much to be thankful for and I recognize this more today than ever.

It’s high time I get back to feeling as normal as I can and give myself the benefit of the doubt.  It’s about time I put my words into action.  I find myself invested in having a routine again so I can have a healthy balance of exercise and writing (things I want to spend most of my time on) and anything else that comes along the way and have time for as well.  It takes the right energy to collaborate with all your varying parts.  I’m very successful at starting it, but maintaining it is where I have issues.  I’m not just hoping I keep going, but actually do it this year.  Here’s to positive changes and longevity in these changes.  Here’s to having more dreams.


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