Pisaries Creator

I’ve worn a lot of shoes over the years. Some were used way past their prime. Others were hardly used and gave them to someone who might want them. A few made my feet hurt, but I forced them to work with my feet. Over time they stretched out and they were comfortable. The same goes for jobs. Some are great. Others not so much. Some you try but aren’t your cup of tea for one reason or another. The water is too hot or too cool. I have reluctantly taken jobs and they ended up better than expected because of my co-workers. I have left jobs because they didn’t value my time and effort for something better, only to find out it was worse. I have left bad jobs to work at an equally bad job.

I don’t have much to offer except to say that somethings are not worth it. Somethings are not your fault or the other person’s fault. It just didn’t work out for one reason or another. There is a certain kind of outcome you anticipate and others not so much. I’ve had my ups and downs over the last five years. I’m not sure where I am or where I stand right now beyond a few feet ahead of me. It’s not that I feel empty about my life, but it’s far from normal. However, there has to be some light at the end of the tunnel. I’m going to have the ability to go to concerts on the weekends if I want to and have more time to plan the beginning stages of the joint T-shirt business I hope grows and thrives. My current job wasn’t the right hours for me and it left me so drained by the end of each day that all the energy I had leftover was to sleep.

What made it worse, I was so wound up from the shift, it would take me three hours to fall asleep and that was with taking melatonin and pain meds for my head. I’m not sure where that leaves me except I’m looking forward to having some time off before I start my new job. I’m not hoping or wishing for a fairy tale. I am looking for some peace and really wanting the rest of this year low key every day of the week. I want dry toast and plain oatmeal. I want shoes that don’t pinch and aren’t uncomfortable in any way. I want to simply be me (whatever that means).