Journal Entry Type #62: Slow Down but not Too Much

Okay, I don’t have a lot of time as I have to get on the road (highway), but as I was getting ice tea today, I ran across this. Yes, I was in the passenger seat so I was able to take a picture with my phone. It’s blurry but serves a purpose, nonetheless, and that is to slow down. As you can see in the picture below, the car was probably rear-ended as the bumper was completely off. It probably caused the hit another car, spin it around, and somehow flip upside down. In additional to the broken windshield, the license plates were from CA. That really doesn’t matter because NV drivers can be just as bad. I can pretty much back this up since living in the Las Vegas area. Nevada drivers are almost worse because they have the need to be ahead of you at all costs. I’ve had more cars in NV pass me, swerve into my lane, just to turn right in about 10 to 15 feet ahead. I kid you not. They are downright crazy nuts.

I went to Coffee Bean today and haven’t there in a long time. I can now go inside instead of waiting outside for my drink. It was pretty busy as it seems life is going around three quarters speed around here. As I try not to think about the presidential/senate/house election coming up, I’m not sure if I’ll be able to focus on much of anything until I have somewhat of an answer. The thing is on Tuesday the chances of knowing the election results is probably not going to happen nor will it on Wednesday or Thursday, but I’m hopeful. With any election, the margins are becoming closer between Trump and Biden. I hold no illusion that Biden might lose. I have all expectation Trump will win. If you’ve read my other posts, you will know who I already voted for and yet it’s going to be an uphill battle for whoever wins. I know there will not be a miracle on November 4th. It will still be politics as usual. I will still feel the same way (most likely), but I hope my nerves won’t be as frayed. I’ve been more anxious this year about the election than any other previous and I haven’t lived that long. The stress level (read anxiety) has increased for both Trump and Biden supporters this year. Rightly so. Neither side wants to lose but shit, I’m wanting politics to be boring again. I definitely don’t need any coffee. I’m wound up already.

With this being said (my new favorite phrase), I’ve busied myself with watching declassified missions from the CIA and FBI. I don’t know why but American spies is so fascinating to me. I imagine I will write some kind of short story about a spy just to get it out of my system. I’ve also been thinking about my writing ideas and to be honest, I feel a little bit discouraged right now. I mean why write them if no one will read them. What’s the damn purpose? But, this is a very negative way to think. I definitely need to branch out and expand my possible viewers by making it available to other countries besides the U.S, but I’m the type of person to not delve into something without knowing what it all entails. A huge part of me wished I operated with less needing to know about the ins and outs of something, but I suppose I’m doing it on my timeline. I’ve thought about going to local places to try to sell my books, but I’m definitely not there yet. I want to get, at least, a few books on the shelf before I go out in person. There’s a fine line between realistic confidence in my vision and letting it get away from me. I feel stuck somewhere in between and would like to progress further. I suppose that is all for now as I have to hit the road. It’s the one time I listen to music and am looking forward to it.

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