When things bother me, I tend to retreat inward and my mind spins in many different directions. One time it can go left. Another time right. Shortly after that it will try to go in opposite directions and feel like your body and mind is not working together. This is when I go a little (more) crazy in my head and start to obsess about certain things that happened earlier. I think about how I reacted to a specific situation and how I probably overreacted. I’m in my head way too much and all the inadequacies of the past come flooding back along with more current ones that have surfaced. The definition of synergy is the interaction or cooperation of two or more organizations, substances, or other agents to produce a combined effect greater than the sum of their separate effects. When I remove myself from the issues I’m sitting in, perceived or not it doesn’t matter because it’s real to me, I have to dig deep down to get through this.
This is where synergy comes into play to stop the mind from repeating all the negative and anxiety ridden thoughts in my head. There are a few things I have to do in order to reset (in a way). The first is getting out into nature. I ended up going for an hour walk/hike and had to brace myself for the windy weather that I wasn’t aware of prior to going. I didn’t want to job and instead walked at a fast pace and went a little bit uphill on my hike. The second thing I did was come home and meditate in the silence by reading out loud certain passages and phrases that help me feel centered and whole again. The third thing I did was what I call “do my cards” which amounts to common sense and spiritually driven advice.
Without going into too much detail, I want to speak about fate and destiny. We don’t control everything in our lives, but we do have a choice in many ways. Do we want to cooperate with our true self or work against it? Do we want to interact and feel the joy in how the different parts of us work together for the greater good and greater whole? Trying to mirror your private self with your public self is just as important as working to make your emotional, physical, spiritual, and even sexual self as grounded and even as possible. Not one slice of the pie should be larger next or across from another slice. Balance is really important to me. I try my best to attain it as much as I can each day of the week. The advice I usually get reflects my current situation with my thoughts, feelings, emotions, processes, agenda, and more. To close this, I leave you with the following.
It’s hard to find any kind of peace or relief when a shit storm is brewing around you.
The last thing you want to do is fix the problem because of how emotional you feel.
After some time, you do need to go back to it because whatever you feel will crop up again by hitting you in the face or getting a reminder of some sort.
At certain times you have to face whether you will remain in place and go through the same motions or convince yourself the risk of changing your perception of your comfort line is worth it.
Who you are should be evolving and never stop and your awareness of this expansion (hopefully) instead of contraction should be noted because it’s as important as eating or not eating.