What Could Have Been
What are the odds?
Not very high.
I told myself this over and over.
It must be difficult to know you lost out on something.
Yes, it stings a little bit, but all the time people lose.
Some lose something small.
Some lose something big.
It is easy to let it fester.
Stay up all hours of the night.
What was the meaning of this?
Am I not seeing something there?
Is this is another lesson?
Why did I miss it?
What do other people do?
Because I only feel numbness.
This is a screwed up way to teach me a lesson.
I wasn’t told these kinds of things would happen.
I wasn’t given the choice that life would get harder instead of easier.
I wasn’t told many things.
I find myself not so hopeful.
It is sad I might never be reunited with the might have been.
It is downright a gloomy prospect.
I am not sure where to place my feet now.
It scares me more than I am admitting.
The sun rising or setting does not comfort me like it once did.
This kind of repetition gets old.
Will the sun stop rising and setting at some point?
Will it disappear?
I am not feeling like I once was.
I am not feeling much at all.
The odds were very high this time.
There had to be another way.
There simply was not.